UNDER CONSTRUCTION

Shits just been so dark lately...

and I don’t mean dark as in anything negative, or evil.

Dark as in empty. Absence.. not knowing whats there, not knowing whats next.

The past few months I’ve let so many things go. Forced change where I once found comfort.. making space for something new. Everything new. Now is when I make the decision as to what it is I want to replace it with.. 

its almost scary, knowing you have that much power over your own life. Isnt it? its as simple as making the choice. Everything is at your fingertips. Sometimes its almost like we'd rather have all of these excuses, than to just boss up and take chances.

"Accept and release."

That’s what I’ve been trying to practice more and more, accept what everything is and has been, and finally let go.

I’m not sure revamping everything at once was smart because with that came a lot of emotion, and mental reconstruction that I’m not sure I was prepared for..

But we’re here. We’re pushing forward. We’re dealing with the transition. I honestly can’t say anything has gone badly.. things have actually been so smooth, it reassured me that this is exactly where I was supposed to be right now. This phase is necessary.

I did the right thing.. now I need to just welcome the new... be open and stop looking back wondering if I was wrong for wanting more.

Change is never comfortable, I didn’t expect it to be. If its something I truly want, I have to jump in.. no regrets. no questions asked. 

We live once. Why be predictable. Why live life by what is expected of us? Why be scared of what could go wrong? If you tell yourself you’ll fail, you will undoubtedly fail. If you tell yourself this is what you ARE doing, you will claim everything in your path. 

Be scared, deal with the emotions.. BUT MOVE FORWARD.